I’ve had a weird last couple of months im ngl. Living alone really gives me so much time to be in my head about things. I love it and hate it at the same time. I’ve been wrestling with a lot of jealousy and envy lately. A ton of comparisons. All while being mixed with feeling constantly unsatisfied in the midst of what I do acknowledge as success. And it’s tricky because I think im so used to trying to make it always appear like im totally chilling to the public eye, but 99% of the time im the complete opposite lol. Im so emotional. Ive probably cried more times this year than any previous year that i can remember. But it’s not out of sadness like im not emo or anything (nothing against emo’s lol) I just feel more emotionally aware these days. which I think is a good thing? I fuck with it. Back to comparisons rq tho. Comparisons are so weird - no matter who you are, there is quite literally always something or someone with something better than you. So what im trying to learn to do is have perspective with it, and continually be content with what I have bc I do really feel so grateful for my life. But the constant want for more is my achilles heal.